i have wrestled with whether or not i should post this, but i guess i just need to get it off my chest...
when lydia works night i usually take the opportunity to watch about 3 or 4 tv shows at once, flipping back and forth between channels. one of the shows that unfortunately caught my attention was a special that was taking place on dateline where they were trying to catch internet predators by having people pretend to be young teenagers inviting these predators over to their house while their parents are away. when the men would arrive in the house they would quickly be met by the host of dateline who would sit them down and talk with them. the reactions of the men were mainly denial, and some quickly responded with an apology and a promise to never do this type of thing again. then men would leave the house and breath a sigh of relief, thinking, "wow, that was a close one", only to be tackled by about 6 cops, have their picture taken, and be sent to jail. this whole show was disturbing, but i had a sense of peace that justice was being served and that i was seeing these men get caught red handed. but then, at the end of the show the most horrific thing happened. the last predator they profiled was a 40 year old man who believed he was coming to meet a 14 year old boy. the man got out of his car and walk around to the other side and took his 5 year old son out of the back seat and proceeded to walk to the house while holding his son's hand. when the man went inside, the dateline host immediately explained what was going on, so as to not frighten the young boy, and the man was swarmed by cops while the boy was whisked away by a female cop to keep him from seeing what was happening to his poor excuse of a dad. i couldn't help but weep for this boy. i felt sick to my stomach. i turned off the tv. i just stopped and thought, "what the hell is wrong with this world?". it made me so sick.
obviously this bothered me deeply for the next while and when i was trying to fall asleep i couldn't get this guy out of my mind. then the good Christian thought of "well, Jesus died for Him too." came into my mind. it made me so angry. i was furious that God's grace wouldn't stop short of this man... seriously, i'm even ok with God forgiving murderers, thieves, and liars... but i have a short list of people that i think should be taken straight to an eternity of suffering rather than a few years in jail. yes-- we're all sinner, and yes-- i can even say that i'm no better than the murderer or the adulterer. but i would like to think that i'm better than a pedophile. i would like to think that i'm not the same as a rapist in God's eyes.
how is it that something so beautiful as God's grace can seem so terrible within a different context?
if you care to check out the story of Dateline catching predators, you can do it here.